Gonna leave soon....a few more hrs.... Vacations only remind me back and back to the past.....Too much travelling...too much getaways and each time i go abroad i had her in my vey mind.....even today... FOr i noe, nothings the same again...But still i live with it... SUpposedly to be a happy time travelling.....supposedly to be a happy graduation trip.... But all will be well once i meet them.....hope it takes my mind off things... The quiet times will make me wonder again....the walking ard will make me remember things again....
i always think of her everyday......I think its quite painful for me.....This trip will be a very heartfelt one......i realli wished i had not gone thru this.....I wished i can happily enjoy my grad trip...But i cant....I'm always like this....why!
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I dunno y....i kept it all.....i still take it out. took great pains not to take it outta the box....and hear what it will start singing to me...
why do i fall?
i need to let it all out....but where?
I think i'm gonna cry again....i beta stop.....a big man with a weak mind..
The singing pig.....i fail miserably......i dun wan to say anymore...
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The recent posts is not of any interest.....nthings to interesting....nothings ggin too well.... i rearranged the room, now i dunno how to describe....neither do i noe y i rearrange it....everyone else telling me a new beginning ....a new beginning.....But do they know....how much it means to me???
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Morning/Night? | Thursday, May 17, 2007
THe nights and mornings have seen to me like an endless route each day. losing every single drive day after day. Losing direction. losing me. losing myself. Isit morning now? or isit night time. As i lay upon my bed tossing and turning. perturbed by the facts and reality of life, I approach the computer and once again wriggling on the keyboard in darkness in my own little cosy corner. SO many times i tell myself nvr to let go of wat u feel to let pp know. SO many times, i told myself to keep all these to myself. Slowly, the need for an avenue to release my thots and my feelings are a necessity. I've lost it. I;ve lost my sanity.....
How much times have i been awake since i returned back to this cosy corner of my life. Endless....SLeepless... I wake up and the same things happen....These are the timings which i sleep today.......Save me from the fires of hell..
All i wanna do is to lead a simple simple life.......And yet...
SHivering and pondering.......i yearn...
I yearn for many things.......and it goes....... ...... ... .. .
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好痛，好痛，真的好痛
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NO | Sunday, May 13, 2007
Its back....i kept thinking and thinking.....keep me away from thinking....the past....the trip.....the quiet times. How much it meant to me. How MUCH i actually expect and how much i actually loved someone so badly, so lovingly. So much that i can give up so many things. And now i'm just left with....myself. i yearn. I died. i cried.
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
Loves
Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
