And so i asked and i thought and i think hard. Was it necessary, well, let things go....be it that or this. hmm, maybe i'll get it. LOL, maybe i wun. At least i have, and mine to the person. WHo knows. Maybe one day. Perhaps not any one day. Just have fun, its almost over in 2 days.
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First | Tuesday, February 20, 2007
They say first is nvr good, i believe so after 2 times. The first, took me 4 whole yrs to realise she'll nvr turn back. Much as i tried so hard to meet with her whenever she comes to singapore, but wad she realli wants is to be friends, Wad i got was, "not free", "fully packed itinery" and a last call from her when she's leaving the very day. I guess the reason is clear, she afraid i nvr put it down. Now she's happily married with Felix, i think. Came those lovey dovey messages.....happy chinese new yr - Felix and Bernice. Gosh, why does it happens to me all the tfucking time!!
THen she was there was i wanted nothing to do with r/s again. a great, 23 mths. was great, left her, came back, enjoyed, quarrelled, made up. All she wanted was...... "NOT ME" why do i try so hard that each time i felt so damned lonely, i will face myself, not crying, just dropping tears and asking myself qns after qns. Many the times to indulge in the work but nvr succeed. They say the first is unforgettable. They say the first will nvr last too. Wad u have is the memories and the hopes. Then there came the qn. Would you rather love or be loved. I can nvr answer that qn and will most probably not know wad the answer is. becoz there is no answers.
I love woman. I love those who has a character, i love those who dun love me. WHY?
I'm not here to let them find out wad they want in life. I'm looking for someone who compliments me. I'm not some saint. I cant do it. So, why.....paths nvr cross or they were crosslinked wrongly AND why do i have to be at the END OF IT! WHY? why......why do i see the lovey dovey ard me. Can i just capped it up and top it in a bottle and leave it there for a while? 2 yrs, 3 yrs.....as long as leave it there.
Lemme juz graduate......Let me.... Let me go abroad to be an associate, link myself to citibank, work my hearts out, earn wad i deserve for studying these 15 yrs of my life. wasted until the final lap of 4 years. Let me buy my pte house, my cars, assets and management. Let me chalk it up to make up the wasted 11 yrs of my life rotting away.
Let me be with god for the next few remaining yrs then, live it to be the saint. Whichever time comes and let me be...........let me be.........let me beeeeee
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
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Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
