Why are there juz things that juz keeps bothering you. Sometimes necessary, sometimes unnecessary. Too sensitive or too insensitive. Sometimes it just makes u feel too tired to say anything, sometimes it just affects you too much to be able to do anything. When you pack the baggage in and it juz makes you keep pondering and pondering the things that might happen, the things that can happen, the possibilities, THE ifS. Is that to equip you with the necessary preparations or is that jus to psycho yourself with the worse kind of scenario that you can expect so that you will feel better when the ifS becomes a reality.
Personalities will always be personalities, differences are always met without compromise. It makes you go thinking all the time, always just simply the one straightforward that u wanna do once you have made your goal. Dun think that you know me. There's juz too much i have yet to find out.
Nothing's forever. You got to live with the fact that things come things go. Pp go by pp pass by. If there is anything, most probably is the thing that you have always been praying for. Your beliefs. Got to learn to take it the +ve way but how do you expect a person who have lived with pessimism for the rest of the last 10 yrs pondering on how life would be in the next 10 yrs so that he can make the necessary arrangements to his life to make it less pessimistic. Knowing things happen juz makes things worse. Not knowing is even worse off. When you have no expectation, does it mean happier? Dun think so. Then when things starts to get blurry and no room for extra space to expand, wouldnt it be too late then? Too much to think, too much to expect. Sometimes, you dun even know even if you shld be happy or sad. Juz questions, if it was so simple. No one can answer me with a definite answer. If you did, you most probably be god.
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Created at 3:00 am
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bloggers day | Monday, January 23, 2006
I cant imagine myself blogging and blogging for a long time and everyday also actually. Nothing too interesting to talk abt actually and the most impt thing is the lazinest that is coming at me. I juz keeps getting lazier and lazier. Week 4 already, got a feeling i cant really catch up again just like any other semester and juz skim through or maybe 'bao' a few more. Cant afford though but then again. its so bored. Didnt know why i joined the sub committees in the first place. Waste time and waste money. But all right la, got some chio bu in the events committee haha....cannot comment too much. At least got some form of motivation to continue in the commitee...ooPs....reality ...haha.....
tomolo chinese new year dinner in hall...sian, waste time again, i dun even know anyone then the seniors also not going....i goign to be alone again...kaoz...If can siam, i must try to siam the dinner....gonna end like 11 like that leh....sure drag one, then dunno anyone very kelian de lo....Hai....I want to skip it!!!!! If got friends still nvrmind. GRrrr..Later still have welfare things to do...send to opp their food and stuff.....kao....then meet at 10pm....sure wait till long long one....then drag again....keep wasting my time....
Today got lab quiz...heng heng not really a quiz but discussion...haha...heng la...now jus left the report part, then settle le..then can do other necessary work le then can relax a bit.... Want to pia this week, then CNY relax then rest a bit then pia again...hopefully, i can keep up with it and work a little harder. Tomolo going to queensway.
Lately spending alot of money, CNY have to give things to dear's family, then after that still have to celebrate dear's birthday and finally February is the one year anniversary. Dunno how....like alot of things to do like that.
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Created at 8:54 pm
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truth is always unacceptable. Who think is not right send me a message, everything can be explained from the "perception point and the relation with the reality of being told the truth.
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
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Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
