TO say the truth, i've been having dreams. I dun dream. Its getting bad day by day. I wanna stop this. every morning i wake up, the false hope or even deeper hurt. i cannot stand it.
I know it. i must stop it and i cannot stop it.mentally, its draining. i cant slp early. i cannmot wake up early. these thoughts flood my mind as the rains floods our northern neighbours. forever subsiding but just that little by little that its taking a toll on me.
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Created at 1:24 pm
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The truth | Friday, February 02, 2007
The truth abt love is that it is fragile, it is transient. Happy are those who are in love now coz you nvr know when isit that u decide to stop loving. When isit that you decide to start loving.
Love is temporary, Love is the moment. We stop and we hate to love at times but we cant live w/o it. Is it so true that when u love someone, you'll let her go? I dun really know but i know wad is respect and dignity.
In all aspects as we see the way we want it to be. be it the selfish way or the loveable way.
Happiness is only temporary as we slowly fonder our way through countless hates, loves and emotional moments. TO wad really? To be happy or just to be in a r/s? I do not know and will not know. I have no right to talk about it.
I have no way to talk about it. Is it a dream? is it a hope? Are we just slaves to love, sometimes it brings you to the clouds and at times it brings to from heaven to hells. Life is just a contradictory just becoz of time. When you think its there, its gone and the moment u think its gone, its there.
I'm really hoping i'll get thru all these and at the same time get thru my school, my work and myself. I should not even have posted so many information online but that is my source of comfort. My source of hearing and my source of company. For now, its myself. All i ask is faith and hope.
My smiles are no longer smiles. They are nothing but a tool for self deception and appearance, they no longer appear real. Nor is the heart that appears innocent and sooth, what lie beneath is a heartful of aches and pains. Pity most to the brains that think, that it hurts so much with every working byte. The memories that long past, the faith that was within storing into every moment into the live. Slowly all fades and all that is left is just a soulless, aimless being.
FOr all those who live in happiness, may it really be the happiness that last forever, the pain when it ends is worth a thousand prickles of a rose thorn. Mind boggles, dejection and failure is all that is left. TO make more feel like this is to make this world into a point of no return.
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Created at 10:33 pm
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Nite | Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I couldnt really sleep. Now everything about America reminds me of everything. I dun understand all the fun in America and the end over here.
I know, it's over. memories return back in a flash and i'm in a wreck.
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Created at 3:57 am
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i wish | Sunday, January 28, 2007
I wish for my friends. Happiness and well being.
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Created at 10:23 pm
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
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Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
