TOday i went to see pp in the track and fields team doing the IHG competition....then i felt really old..hahah well..i really am la...already 23 le...still nothing to name.....no $ in my pocket....felt really guilty....so old yet have no directions yet...kinda sad la..old le...... WIsh to take a peek into the future....my future....but better not.....future not for me to see. Shld i tell more abt myself or shld i juz say what i want to say. Boring siah.....my life that is....sad life though.....Shall make it more interesting..haha
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lost? | Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Seem to have lost much of my confidence after building it from a long way down. Wondering wat is really wat i am really want to or really trying to be good at. THings happen and things go. Then again, no one's right or wrong.
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Created at 8:51 pm
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Taboos.....not meant to be said.....words not meant to be spoken....ego and pride reduced to nothing in front of the women you love, is there no zone to be explained, no zone to be able to do and wish to say what you want to say. Comparison, loss are your main worries. Sometimes juz thinking a little more than what was required. Sometimes thinking abt yourself, sometimes thinking abt how other think, how good, how bad you are. The wishes u wish nvr comes, the unexpected happens, the things that goes well and doesnt. HOw You wish? HOw You wish? but it will nvr happen. Coz such a girl is such a dear, such dear with such a simple person, how bad can he do. How the views of other can affect a single person, how one will not affect the other, the indifferent and the special treatment from each and every individuals. There will be no response....only times of quiet. You will stop being right. You got to take it. SLowly and slowly, you lose everything juz for the little sacrifice you wanna make for the lovely bit.
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Created at 12:56 am
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Year 2006.....back to school...school as usual sucks....so is studying better or working better? Is slacking better or busy better? i have no idea. My mind is full of the US trip to New Jersey and looking nothing but forward towards that.
Not been uploading pictures on the blogsite and neither am i posting as frequent as i used to be. No internet support with 56kers and with an unstabnle supply of wireless connection at the comfort of my bed, i am so lucky to access some form of internet....haha...i'm juz stealing wireless where ever i go. haha...
Hoping to take a peek into the future. Its not possible so beta get back to being normal.
Sometimes i wonder, i go back to hall is it a better choice? no idea with my life anyways. Nothings confirm, nothings worth talking abt.
2006....hopefully is another eventful and lovely year. THe year of 2005 was considered a pretty gd years with many unexpected returns which i really nvr expect. But with every gd return there come a price. Nvr expected to meet a girl who could make me go crazy over her for such a long time already. been already close to 11 months and although i;ve been away for 6 months, i think, i'm still crazy over her as usual. As mentioned she was really an unexpected package, i didnt know meet her in late January would have such an impact on my life. Slowly, i decided to maintain a life of quietness and bachelor road for another couple of years until she juz poom....came into my life, make me go ga-ga over her and then....the rest is history. Of coz, with someone else into your life it means, many things you wanna consider before u do anything. Emotion baggage, the lives....the happiness, the sadness, the problems, the loss of being single. Is that a real gd thing or bad thing? i dunno, there shld be a compromise i think. This is perhaps one of the greater things that happened and planned for me during the early part of the year.
The 2nd most lucky thing i ever got was perhaps an over the expectation of my overseas IA. I got the interview to the HP company....and i thot thats great....with my resume and my grades to make it into the HP company and such a bnig company will be of beneficial to my future. THen comes the interview to the overseas IA company to Ford Motors Japan......THat was it....the dream and the experience i have been wanting and waiting for a long time.....This break was a LUCKy break and i mean LUCky.....how many times of luckiness can i get....twice in a year. Of coz this super lucky break means a super price to pay. Met with this selfish guy and had to stay and be with him for a whole 6 months.....great price to pay but the experience is priceless, friends are priceless and this is pale when held in comparison with this little price to pay other than the $ and budget.
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Created at 12:26 am
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home | Monday, January 02, 2006
Finally after 6mths of attachment in Japan, i'm finally home.....kind sad....kind of happy...dunno which one to feel more abt. Maybe the trip did some gd...many it did some bad..Very difficult to say where or how well it went. But nom regerets i supposed...Ever since came back, adjusting to the Singaporean mentally was really a lil' tuf but in the end have no choice but to do what others do and at the same time have an open mind. Been really bz before the new year. Been going out and walking ard...meeting baby and friends....not been blogging ard and feel weird blogging ard here...coz there isnt any thing much to remind myself too.....But i muz say the P.I.A.P was kinda fun...soemthing different....a lil' expensive but kinda well worth...$38 per pax. with tents and other BBq stuff but again too many things were bought. Although the camping thing wasnt for us, but it was kinda fun....only that it rained and we couldnt do many many things.....prectically didnt do anything.....miss all the fun with the sunshine, miss the fireworks, miss the sunrise....sianz...
The next day, poor jw had to take the 8-men tent home to wash and dry, the weather wasnt that gd the next morning also.....then we all headed down to mac's for breakfast. WHen will such holidays be so enjoyable again....holidays not much left also i supposed. Very fast have to work and i wan to pour my passion into working to start making things which i wan it to happen since primary school. Sacrifice must be put into something i want badly. Time flies...i'm actually 23 already with nothing to name. Only spending lotsa money, doing stupid things, not studying, not able to pick up anything. Being normal as it would normally say.
Anyway, time to play harder and harder before school ends....then cannot do anything le...hopefully, things come and things go. Life still goes on......I trying to make an interessting deal outta Singapore...want to go exploring explloring....eating and eating....watch animes after animes....
life back in Singapore is great, i do not need to spend time with someone i dun like. Keeps calling me to get what survival guide. Get it done urself la...Farked up...dun bother me. First thing that i receive when i touch down is his news abt the dell LCD repairs price.....totally up to 471 per person....2 of us....really paying $ for nothing....of coz i at fault...but thats juz simply dumb la.....hate dell computers from now on.....RICH pp are always like that...buy then warranty dun send..then when accident then say.....no wonder he got not much friends...so fucked up...luckily he outta my life.
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
Loves
Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
