I've simply no idea how many people looks into this page of solemn entries that has lived past the past one mth or so......Nvrtheless, i wonder again, how many are just simply looking at OH NO, he's at this again.....The 6 days trip didnt do me any gd, i wished someone was there.....Everynight b4 i fall asleep, i will unknowingly think....unknowingly struggle with my inner self. When i look at love shows, i'll start thinking again.....The travelling was gd, took my mind off somethings.....Den no matter how tired, how tired i am, w.o fail, i sleep to my dreams......and i wake to my dreams like a monk travelling from temple to temple.....The same scripts, the same route.....I struggle with my own self.....wondering if i chose not to break thru, or did i just cant break thru.
Shall tell more abt HK in a while's time....meanwhile....My life is just black and white.....
Nthing's more than just internet surfing and chilling out....beers and wine takes the day outta me....at night, the tv and stoning takes my life away....I'm here rattling in the mist of the cock crowing in half an hrs time....I'm in pain again....Indeed, i failed to understand wad was required of me....even when the perfect angel fell upon the skies i failed to put in everything to make it happen...Den its goes on like a lifeless and mundane cycle every single day.
DO i wan it to end or do i wan it to cont. i guess thats just a qn of want or dun want....6 bloody daes.....And i still think of the past.. I struggle each day to walk a single step away....Yet at the same time....life goes on, time passes and things happen with me unknowingly wasting away every single bit of it. On the other end...Life is normal...occasional disturbance and full stop. I wonder simple to myself.......y this huge difference? wad have i done to deserve this? I find no answer bestowed upon the face of the earth as i leave the stones unturned.
As i go on, it gets weary and teary... Shall stop..
There is still so much to be done....so much to be fufilled.....closing on to quarter life, This can easily overtake many things in the past. It lays motionless, started on the very day it ended.....a whole 23 mths of love, angst and excuses. 2005-2007 (Rest in peace). If vampires existed, i'll revive the dead. If an illness was involved, i'll get the best doctor.......For a heart that stopped to love, even a deity cant do shit.
Faced upon the walls The nights have turned lonely little twinkies fading like the flavour dreaming
strong to passion deep and compassionate the nights stayed quiet As my heart shrieks out in pain, echoes thru the depths of quietness.
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Name: Paul Lee Age: 23 DOB: 20th Dec 1982 Email: gose21@hotmail.com (No Junk Please!)
I am very simple minded la. Loves to slack, have fun, sleeping and play games are my pasttime hobbies.
Highly ambitious but dunno whether if i can live up to my own expectations. Tend to be wary of people whom i dunno.
Sometimes super unfriendly, Lack things to talk to pp but can crap la but thats not a talent k. Now Mildly pessimistic.
I love cars, fast, sporty, wings, side skirts, carbon fibre, big 17" tyres. Whoohoo. Wish to own my own Ferrari one day.
Not model car k? ANy kind souls please. Hee. CHeers to all who read my blog. Thanks for looking. Haha :). Bleahz
Loves
Loves Myself
Loves all kinds of Cars
Loves to Slack
Loves Soccer
Loves to DAYdream
Nothing beats having good friends(Real gd friends)
